reflection. i get it. self eval and analysis of my life ongoing. i spent the early part ofthis week playing a game like someone that has sprated from a spouse. bargaining to go back. expecting to be taken back, but this is a different situation. i walked out on that job. i hated it while was there but now i want to go back. but i dont know if i do, i just wanted to be asked. i need to leave it where it is at though at this point. i am missed by the ones that it was important to me to miss me. it touches me the pts miss me and it touches me that the hospital district misses me and thinks that i was the best thing tat could happen tothat place
i can see if i try hard enough i will get to a point of being liked respected and cared for at my new job. i see it. it is a realistic goal
i am sad that i have had nothing to do enjoyable the last few days. that is my fault though.
