Did you know that vacations can come in many different shapes and forms. Most people when they think of a vacation they think of the standard type, like take me away to a tropical island. sometimes people just take time off from thier jobs and stay home and cathc up on the work that they have gotten behind on. these are generally not that much as far as vacations are concerned. you go back to work tired from working your butt off and not getting away from the things in your normal day life. nothing to really challenge your mind or eyes or your soul. just some days off from work. most of us get those during a typical week, called a weekend.
in a way i have had a vacation for the past 5 days. even got away from here for 2 of those days. gary is in port aransas on a job. so no hubby to come home to. sure i miss laying in bed by him at night, but the dogs have enjoyed having the bed with me. bo went to his sisters and i have not had time to pick him up and geffre has been working evenings. i have been going to work during this time, but when i come home other than feeding my dogs i dont have to wryy about a dinner. yesterday i ate half my lunch and bourhgt the other half home for my dinner. this is a vacation. and i admit although i have missed gary i have enjoyed it
today i am going to do some running around. i have not had a running around day for awhile. i admit at least going to work, i dont spend any money but mothers day is this weekend, and i need to buy my mom something. i dont think i am going to pick up anything for callie, she has a family to buy her something. i do feel callie should at least give me a card, but she is too lazy to buy stamps, like the stupid batteries for the camera, she is too indifferent to buy batteries, it is not that she does not have the money or she thinks the moeny should go somewhere else cuz it is tight. if that was so the kids would not get toys and video games.
i am going to have to wrok hard for the next few days. sure i dread it and i hope i dont have s stupid acute tomorrow cuz i am so proud of my portfolio i want to present it and see if they think i have talent. it is one thing to think i have talent, but i want to hear it from the teachers. i need to hear this.
i know i am not going to get a new vehicle this year. this is another one of those years where i am entitled nothing. i am to give and give to others and watch them get things but i am to get crumbs. i shold be greatful for crumbs right? instead of a week in vegas or getting to go see shea lanay in florida, i get a mini vacation from my family. this is good though. the crumbs are tasty. i am seeing lots and lots of signs this years and pathways. i know others are not noticing signs cuz they are wrapped up in thier own lives. i have to learn not to get so weighed down by disappointments that i drown in a rut again. if i dont get to go to class tomorrow i will be in a new rut because the task i sat out to accomplish will have been denied me. and i will resent the pt who ihave to dialzye. although they may not wished to be sick or to be in the hospital, once again i am expected to be the mature compassionate adult and take care of another needy person. yes i will be mad. i never babysat as a youngster and dont like doing it as an adult. going to class is a small thing but i need the class tomorrow to affirm myself. having gary take it to class does me no good. i do alot of things for lots and lots of people. i dont get acknowldedged for most of it. i watch other people that do much less than i do shout thier little insignificant accomplishments and bask in it and for the most part i dont do that. for this instance i need this.
ok i live my life on a pity party. its my party and i will whine if i want to. party on garth. until later gator
